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I try my best, but to some thats not good enough

Hello, its been a while. Its actually been over a year since I last posted anything on this blog. Its not that I haven’t wanted to write, I have… its more been finding the focus to write or having the confidence to say what I really want to say. I think that in previous posts,Continue reading “I try my best, but to some thats not good enough”

Happy Heavenly 90th Nan

Today, 4th October 2020 would have marked Nans 90th birthday. I don’t really want to dwell on the fact she isn’t here to celebrate it with us, I feel that today should be a happy day. As a family we so badly wanted Nan to make 90, I remember many conversations in the months leadingContinue reading “Happy Heavenly 90th Nan”

Getting back to normal finding the new normal

I think we would all agree 2020 has been one heck of a weird year. When I think back to Nan going into hospital back in February despite only being 6 months ago almost to the day it feels like a completely different life and world. Coronavirus was present as there were plenty of signsContinue reading “Getting back to normal finding the new normal”

I miss her, but I am glad shes at peace.

I miss Nan so much and part of me wishes so so much I could have her still here with me however, part of me is relieved she is at peace now. Is that me saying I am glad shes not here? Of course not. Am I glad she isn’t suffering anymore? 100%. When sheContinue reading “I miss her, but I am glad shes at peace.”

Grief and its impact on my health

Previously I have blogged about my health having Fibromyalgia, Joint hyper-mobility syndrome and anxiety. I stopped that and recently I have only been talking about Nan and how I am feeling, which undoubtedly this will still be about as it hasn’t even been four weeks yet. Grief has an impact on people physically, it reallyContinue reading “Grief and its impact on my health”