For quite a while there had always been that thought in the back of my head when I went to bed that I’d wake up and there would be that phone call… you know the phone call no-one wants to say that Nan had gone. The thoughts became more when Nan came out of hospitalContinue reading “The phone won’t ring now.”
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Love you, Love you, Love you
Nan always used to say goodbye to me (and a few others) by saying “Love you, Love you, Love you”. I loved hearing that so much. She said it once whilst she was in hospital in March and this made mum and I so happy. It all started when I used to ring her twiceContinue reading “Love you, Love you, Love you”
1 year ago – 3rd May 2019
For the last year I have referred to the 3rd May as our last normal day, the last day it was mainly me and Nan. The last time before a huge chunk of the responsibility was taken from my shoulders and it makes me sad because it was such a happy moment in which thisContinue reading “1 year ago – 3rd May 2019”
Grief started before the loss
The day Nan died I took down all the photos I have of me and her in my room. I figured I would find photos too painful to look at and it would be best to just take them away so I wasn’t constantly reminded. To start with this really helped but since I firstContinue reading “Grief started before the loss”
Thank you Alzheimer’s Support
Caring for someone with dementia is hands down the most rewarding thing I have ever done. I would put it above getting my degrees when I was told I’d never make it to uni. Its my greatest achievement giving Nan all that time I did and having all the memories in the form of photographsContinue reading “Thank you Alzheimer’s Support”
Sometimes we would sit on the floor.
During the years where Nan had dementia she developed lots of different personality traits. Some made us laugh, some made us cry and some made us go why? One that made me go Why? but I soon learnt to understand and in a way I found it quite cute was her need to sit onContinue reading “Sometimes we would sit on the floor.”
Dear Nan
Dear Nan, I’m writing this whilst sat at your house. It is so weird without you sat in the chair next to me, telling me you want cake. I am pretty sure the cupboards are full of cake I just can’t bring myself to go and look. I’m here to get photos for your orderContinue reading “Dear Nan”
Every photo is a memory I can keep forever.
For the last 3 and a half years I have taken thousands of pictures and videos with Nan, I always joked well its something to remember her by but it really is something to remember her by now all I have is the memories. Every photo has a story and I am quite good atContinue reading “Every photo is a memory I can keep forever.”
We were the best of friends.
In the last few days I have been looking at all the pictures that I have taken of me and Nan. This picture sticks out to me. It doesn’t look that significant but it really makes me smile every time I look at it. This picture is from the morning after my uncle went intoContinue reading “We were the best of friends.”
Dear Social worker
Dear Social worker, You could have ruined it all. Last year when Nan was in hospital you had all these ideas. You tried to push for my Nan to be taken away from her home and put in a care home. “Shes unsafe” “She walks around with her trousers round her ankles” “She will fall”.Continue reading “Dear Social worker”
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