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2021 has been meh

2020 was a difficult year because we lost Nan and then the pandemic didn’t exactly help but I had positive things happen like start to get a handle on my weight. I remained gamble free (and still am) and I remember thinking this time last year feeling quite positive about going into 2021. Well, ha,Continue reading “2021 has been meh”

1000 days in recovery

Today is a special day for me, its one that has been in the diary for a few months when I knew that it was approaching. Maybe I could have jinxed myself by looking far ahead but I knew that I would reach it and I have. Today, after 10 years of fighting an addictionContinue reading “1000 days in recovery”

Happy Heavenly 90th Nan

Today, 4th October 2020 would have marked Nans 90th birthday. I don’t really want to dwell on the fact she isn’t here to celebrate it with us, I feel that today should be a happy day. As a family we so badly wanted Nan to make 90, I remember many conversations in the months leadingContinue reading “Happy Heavenly 90th Nan”

Getting back to normal finding the new normal

I think we would all agree 2020 has been one heck of a weird year. When I think back to Nan going into hospital back in February despite only being 6 months ago almost to the day it feels like a completely different life and world. Coronavirus was present as there were plenty of signsContinue reading “Getting back to normal finding the new normal”

Together at the end.

It is by chance that I came up with this post idea and today (6th of July… who knows when I will post it) I still don’t know how comfortable I am with the idea of sharing this with you all but I realised I rarely discuss my feelings and on this I would likeContinue reading “Together at the end.”

Distracting Nan really helped

You learn very quickly when caring for someone with Alzheimers that a positive distraction is key to changing their behaviour especially when they may be worked up by something. This was certainly true for Nan and defused a lot of tense situations immediately. When looking through old photos yesterday I was reminded of a particularContinue reading “Distracting Nan really helped”

Grief and its impact on my health

Previously I have blogged about my health having Fibromyalgia, Joint hyper-mobility syndrome and anxiety. I stopped that and recently I have only been talking about Nan and how I am feeling, which undoubtedly this will still be about as it hasn’t even been four weeks yet. Grief has an impact on people physically, it reallyContinue reading “Grief and its impact on my health”