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Dear Nan

Dear Nan, I’m writing this whilst sat at your house. It is so weird without you sat in the chair next to me, telling me you want cake. I am pretty sure the cupboards are full of cake I just can’t bring myself to go and look. I’m here to get photos for your orderContinue reading “Dear Nan”

Every photo is a memory I can keep forever.

For the last 3 and a half years I have taken thousands of pictures and videos with Nan, I always joked well its something to remember her by but it really is something to remember her by now all I have is the memories. Every photo has a story and I am quite good atContinue reading “Every photo is a memory I can keep forever.”

We were the best of friends.

In the last few days I have been looking at all the pictures that I have taken of me and Nan. This picture sticks out to me. It doesn’t look that significant but it really makes me smile every time I look at it. This picture is from the morning after my uncle went intoContinue reading “We were the best of friends.”

Dear Social worker

Dear Social worker, You could have ruined it all. Last year when Nan was in hospital you had all these ideas. You tried to push for my Nan to be taken away from her home and put in a care home. “Shes unsafe” “She walks around with her trousers round her ankles” “She will fall”.Continue reading “Dear Social worker”

The disappearing cooked chicken

I don’t want to just be sad on this blog. Yes, as I write this its 00:17am on 14th of April so basically 36 and a half hours ago Nan passed and I was holding her hand and now is the point the tears won’t stop flowing. So I thought i might try and cheerContinue reading “The disappearing cooked chicken”

Loss – it happens twice.

Yesterday (12th April) We sadly lost my Nan. She died peacefully at home with me holding her hand and given everything that is going on in the world at the moment I don’t think that we could have asked for much more from such a terrible thing. Sadly my mum and brother didn’t make itContinue reading “Loss – it happens twice.”